another year has nearly pasted ...

so here i am september of 2011 ... and i have finally realised that i feel the need to speak up again, to be heard ... i know in some ways that is strange that i haven't felt like i had anything worth saying really - as you can see for a long while, so here it starts (lol! maybe!)

so first up a fresh clean look with a picture of some beautiful poppies in a field (which for me are an important symbol for an important day). come on guess why! ;)

so where do i start - well not the beginning, which isn't a very good place to start.

i think the start is to say that this year has been one of strengths and weaknesses. strength to preserve and weakness to keep trying something that i should have given away earlier than i did.

not to say that things don't happen for a reason, but i am currently more than thankful for a time of real quiet both personally, professionally and yes, emotionally & spiritually.

since making the decision to move states and then finding work, accommodation (on more than a wing and a prayer). i am finding my feet (so to speak) in a way that i haven't before.

i had a great friend (who has only know my whilst living in melbs) and even she says i've grown and matured loads in the last 18 months that we have been friends. which is a great affermation for me to know that this change has definately been for the better.

melbs, for me is a place that gives to the scope to be more true to who you are and in that i am becoming or rather refining into something better and better each day.

so life in melbs - well, its very sweet for me at the moment, in ways that i am amazed. things are amazingly 'zen' like currently which if you know me doesn't happen that often.

not to say that i don't have times of when i want to go nuts at a situation or a person. however, i can say that i am loving where i live in a way i haven't in a long time, my job is really stretching me and giving me the opportunities to grow and develop what and who i am in the office and what i want to do in the future with work.

after the stresses of where i would work and how i do what i do this job is allowing me the ability to see and try new depths within my capabilites within the environment in which i work. and i can honestly say that hasn't happened before or rather i haven't been ready to try in a work place.

well, i think i should leave it there for now ... and lets see where this takes me ... :D